Operation Reset

I need to be honest. I need to hit the reset button on my attitude, eating, and life in general.  I was going to keep all of these thoughts to myself, but I think a bit of transparency is needed.  I’m not perfect, and I don’t ever want to come across as a self righteous butthole that has everything together. I’m such a mess.

I’ve been really stressed out (I know I shouldn’t be) and I am an emotional eater.  I have been on a see-food diet and I have gained 10 lbs over the last month.  Uh, I didn’t lose 60 lbs to have it creep back on.  I’ve been running at least 20-25 miles per week, but I have been eating a lot of food.  I know what has to be done.  First, I need to give up my worries.  It is all finding a job related.  I need to let it go. The right job will come along, I need to be still and wait.  I’m pretty sure complex carbohydrates are not going to make someone notice my resume and magically make a job appear.  Second, I need to quit eating so much.  Totally common sense.  I know what my body needs to function, and chocolate chip cookies are not a daily requirement.  I just need to clean up my diet, and count calories again.  I purchased several really cute spring outfits, and I can’t fit into them.  If Spring ever comes, I want to look cute…

I don’t know, I guess I just feel like I have lost my focus.  I’ve been so wrapped up in worrying, that I have forgotten how great my life is.  I’ve been throwing myself a daily pity party that revolves around me sitting on the couch, watching Netflix, and consuming calories. I need to get my act together.

Time to do something different.


What do you think?