I need to be honest. I need to hit the reset button on my attitude, eating, and life in general. I was going to keep all of these thoughts to myself, but I think a bit of transparency is needed. I’m not perfect, and I don’t ever want to come across as a self righteous butthole that has everything together. I’m such a mess.
I’ve been really stressed out (I know I shouldn’t be) and I am an emotional eater. I have been on a see-food diet and I have gained 10 lbs over the last month. Uh, I didn’t lose 60 lbs to have it creep back on. I’ve been running at least 20-25 miles per week, but I have been eating a lot of food. I know what has to be done. First, I need to give up my worries. It is all finding a job related. I need to let it go. The right job will come along, I need to be still and wait. I’m pretty sure complex carbohydrates are not going to make someone notice my resume and magically make a job appear. Second, I need to quit eating so much. Totally common sense. I know what my body needs to function, and chocolate chip cookies are not a daily requirement. I just need to clean up my diet, and count calories again. I purchased several really cute spring outfits, and I can’t fit into them. If Spring ever comes, I want to look cute…
I don’t know, I guess I just feel like I have lost my focus. I’ve been so wrapped up in worrying, that I have forgotten how great my life is. I’ve been throwing myself a daily pity party that revolves around me sitting on the couch, watching Netflix, and consuming calories. I need to get my act together.
Time to do something different.
What do you think?