Waiting

I am in limbo right now.  I am standing at a fork in the road of my life.  There are two beautiful options and each will lead me to a lovely and secure career path.

I applied for a job at our state’s wildlife agency.  This is one of my dream jobs.  I am perfectly qualified and only a few people have applied.  Let me muddy the water even more.  I also want to teach high school.  There will be a teaching job opening up in the fall in my district.  How am I supposed to know which path to take?

There have been occasions (more than I would like to admit) when I have rushed into things, made quick decisions, not considered God’s plan, and failed miserably.  Those failures have been hard to live with.  I don’t want to fail again.  So again I ask, how am I supposed to know which path to take?  Well, all I know to do is wait for clear guidance.  I mean, I guess I could be like Gideon and ask God to show me a sign, but I kind of feel disrespectful doing that.  So, I’ll just wait.

Psalm 25:12

God has promised to direct my path (Proverbs 3:6), but I have to clear the way first.  I have to ignore my desires and trust that God’s plan is best for me.  I have to stop and wait.

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There are so many (well intentioned) people giving me advice, but I have to remind myself that they aren’t me.  These people may love me, but they don’t know what is best for me.  Honestly, I can ignore people pretty easily.  The voices in my OWN head are the hardest to silence.  This morning I had a moment of panic.  My inner voice started screaming: “Hurry! You’re running out of time! You have to do something! You need a job!”  I got scared.  I got nervous.  UGH! WAITING IS SO HARD!!!!!!! I turned to the Bible for reassurance and to find peace.  God always delivers:

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Matthew 7:7

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I had to think on things.  I had to remember all the times that God has provided solutions in the past.  I think there is a Charles Stanley quote that says something about waiting on things that are important to you.  Having the correct job is really important to me, so I’ll just have to keep waiting until I have an answer.  This has been a daily battle for me over the last few weeks and thanks for letting me get if off my chest.  I feel a better.  I know whichever path I am lead down, it’s going to be awesome.  I know that I will not be disappointed.  I have been on this Earth for 32 years and God has not brought me this far, to leave me stranded now…

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Comments

  1. Teaching is hard. Hard and rewarding. But hard. I definitely think you should try it because let’s face it, kids need good teachers. Go into it like you’re the employer interviewing teaching as a prospective employee not the other way around. Make sure it fits you, what you want, and that you don’t have to worry that you’ll get arrested for beating a smart mouth kid. That alone keeps me in the lab and out of the classroom.

  2. it’s very possible that God is happy with whichever choice you make….remember He is more concerned with the person you are than the job youd o……

  3. Such a hard decision, they both sound wonderful. I hope you figure it out.

  4. Waiting is hard, but the rewards are always so much better when we do it. I wouldn’t begin to tell you which job to take. I will say that often times whatever seems the easiest is the wrong decision. I’ve been reading 1 Kings, and it’s showing me that among other things, the easiest thing to do is often not the right one. Jeroboam thought that rather than have the Israelites go to worship in Jerusalem, which was then in a separate country, it would be better to create idols for the people to worship and appoint his own priests. It was easier to do that, but very obviously the incorrect decision.

    Whether or not this actually helps you, I don’t know. It is one of the things that has been revealed to me personally lately, and maybe it will help you.

  5. Phil 4:6-7 is one of my all time favourite verses. It’s one of my comfort places to read! I just came across your blog today:)

  6. Both options sound so fun!! Thinking about you at this fork in the road!

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